Capture the Moment week 4 Entry: Loss

The assignment of this page was a tough one but i know I would do this for it. My grandfather was dying in IL and I was in FL where I live with my family and we had tickets to Disney world.

Journalling:
Grandpa was sick and I was living far away in another state. It didn't look good but he had made it through before. I was clearing my calender to go home at the end of the week. The doctors who had been with him through his car accident and seen his recovery 5 years earlier were had even said “Call the family home.” My family had plans on Monday. A friend was giving us tickets to Disney World. It was a needed break from the stress we were feeling from our missions application and now my grandfather's health. So we went on our vacation day a world away on the other side of town. Mom knew we were going and told us to have fun, she would keep us posted.
We enjoyed seeing the parade at Magic Kingdom and exploring Future World at EPCOT. As evening approached, I began growing anxious as we explored the nations in the World Showcase and called my mom in Germany. We talked through Italy and the United States. The doctors had some more tests and things were unsure, but in the morning they would know more and we would decide if me and Lydia would fly home immediately or not. I felt torn having grown up living so close to my grandparents, and now for in this important moment I was just one of the scattered relatives, deciding to come home or not
We enjoyed dinner in Japan and walked around past Mexico waiting for the Laser and Firework Finale. It was more spectacular that when we had seen it over the trees from the nearby Boardwalk Resort. We made it a very full day of fun and memories for our 12 hour vacation. The next morning when I checked my email, he was gone, he had passed in the night. It was too late. Thankfully my daughter, his third great-grandchild had met him in October, 7 months earlier, when we had visited and we had lots of pictures and memories to remember the occasion. Sadly he never met the baby in my belly who we named Caleb Robert, partly in his memory.
Lydia and I had plans already to come and visit a few weeks later. It was strange to go to his house and not see him in his chair. It was like he never came out of his office or a back room and then I would realize he wasn't going to ever again. A year later I still catch myself talking about visiting my grandparents, except there is only my grandmother to visit.

Credits: Autumn Reflections by SKrapper Digitals